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Wednesday, August 04, 2004

i don't wanna become a burden. am i a burden? sigh*

=] hello blog. =] its been awhile eh? hasn't it? not like anyone bothers if i blog. or NOT. but wells. i should just. continue for the sake of those who actually bother. =] love to those who does and doesn't anyways. =]

hmms. lets see. life had been. the same. my life is always ever-so-dramatic. =] but its less dramatic now. bleahs. as usual. there's hiccups here and there. but. what's life without pain? hahas. humans are such stupid creatures sometimes. they'll only know what they've done wrong after feeling the pain of that damn mistake. =] no pun intended. i'm just. irritated with someone.

okay. to that SOMEONE. look. as a friend. i've done all i could've. sigh. and i thought. you would be more sensible than her but you know what? i guess i was wrong. you're just LIKE her.
good mask that you've been putting on. where did you get it from hmm? bahhs. so much for me knowing you for so long. and me THINKING that i know you well ENOUGH to know that you wouldn't do this to URSELF.
am i too realistic or are YOU too naive? hmm. oh wells. thanks for making me feel likle sucha failure as a friend yupp. i think currently. no one would have any doubts to whom the WORST FRIEND EVER award would go to.
and in case YOU hacen't NOTICED. yes. i AM upset. very upset as a matter of fact. thank you. =] blahs. i've come to the point. i think. there's nothing else i can say le. so much for u lecturing HER cos of what she did.
now look at you. look what YOU have became. i think char would be really hurt. to see you this way. not like you bother anyways. ha. so much for the always and forever ya? don't EVER promise me anything ANYMORE. cos u
noe what? i DON'T believe you. i CAN'T. i just. don't. understand. why. you. would. wanna do this to yourself. you PROMISED char. i doubt you remember. but i know SHE remembers. bleah. i see no point in continuing.
come back to me when you've sort things out. and yes. don't ask me why. but i know you wish to be alone. and yeah. sorry for being sucha bugger for trying to be there for you. GOOD. BYE.

its funny how CERTAIN temptations can ruin LIVES. and yes. i repeat. LIVES. its all. nothing but a friggin chain reaction. =) oh well. what a SWEET life we all live in. blahs. i can only pray and hope He would forgive HER for what SHE has done. and i HOPE she'll learn from it.

somebody tell me. WHERE is the LOVE? and what's so DAMN WRONG with this FRIGGIN world!? (>.<)! *major irritation in progress.

haha. i'm feeling ANGSTY. whoa. *shrugs.

happy stuffs. happy thoughts. *tries to fly. +falls FLAT on ma face. =|

life ISN'T a bed of roses. but does that mean we should just give up.. and resent to fate? no. its called FIGHT. do you expect happiness to drop down from the sky?
sorry to break your beautiful chain of thoughts. but NO. they don't just fall from the sky. you've gotta work on it. FIGHT for it. EARN it. and not just do things..
hoping that by doings so. you'll gain sympathy. buhs. i'm ~~disgusted~~ by your actions. bleah. i should keep cool. i SHOULD'T be saying all these. *slaps self.

bleahs. i'm so disappointed. that even the.. : enters thought : *what's the largest ocean in the whole world?!* : ends thought : ah ha! paciiificcc ocean!! okay. rephrase.
i'm so disappointed that even the PACIFIC OCEAN is not large enough to fill my disappointment. gees. am i even making SENSE!?

okay. stop stop. i should stop. wrong song. wrong time. wrong place. wrong thought. =] ciaos babeh.

wo wang ji le hu xi.

;elysium.
9:30:00 PM